This Past Week Was Too Good For Words...
This past week was too good for words. The new CHF team made me feel like I was apart of the family and I cannot thank them enough for reminding me just how much I love the village of Guru Guru. Nothing can compare to Northern Ugandan in my mind. The air is different, the scenery is different, and the people are different as well. I got the chance to see many of the little ones who stole my heart last year and the year before that, and boy did they grow up!
My little girl Ruth is now in K3 and she will be starting Primary 1 this next year. She pretends to be shy for the first five minutes every day but then lets that go and is her silly social self again. Baby Mwaka is in K1 and could not be more of a cuddle bug. His smile is absolutely contagious and I could listen to him giggle for hours. Olivia is now in Primary 3 and she blew me away with her English. She formed a little group of “best friends” including me, Sophie, Beatrice, herself, and of course we went everywhere together. It was so incredibly refreshing to spend the week somewhere new, with new people, new stories, and many new experiences.
As I say goodbye to Gulu today and I head back home to Mukono, I am overwhelmed by the emotions that this internship is quickly coming to an end. I have five more days in this beautiful country and I am not at all prepared for these goodbyes.
As tears fill my eyes at the thought of all this, I realize how very blessed I am to live this crazy life that I live, How blessed I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. Who else can say they have so many beautiful people on two opposite sides of the world that they love so dearly. I never once would have imagined that I would fall in love with this country, much less visit six times in four years, but thank goodness I did. I have learned stillness and I have learned love. The people of Uganda have shown me what it looks like to live for the Lord and how to find freedom in being a child of God. I have experienced true joy in this country and I thank Jesus for that each and every day.
I wrote this in my journal today and felt like it sums up how my heart is feeling. I am not the best at writing my prayers but I thought I’d share this one.
“Lord, I have kids that call me mom and mothers that call me daughter, all 9,000 miles from where I originally called home. I have people that I know will always love me, and they are spread out on two different sides of the world. Father, your love is so wide, so deep, so long, and it overwhelms me. I am so undeserving of this life you have given me. My human heart cannot grasp how you love, so unconditional and pure. I am in awe of your plan for me, please forgive me for the times I have not appreciated it enough. This world around me is broken, it is pain and sorrow, and it is full of ups and downs. This world I live in is out of my control but because I you I am free. Thank you Jesus for your blessings, you fill my heart with sweet, sweet joy. Thank you Jesus for these past five weeks.”